Zamkatimu
"Banja langa silinakane kubadwa kwa mapasa anga ..."
“Ndidazindikira mu 2007 kuti ndili ndi pakati. Ndimakumbukira bwino nthawi imeneyo, inali yachiwawa. Mukayesa mimba, yomwe ili yabwino, nthawi yomweyo mumaganizira chinthu chimodzi: muli ndi pakati ndi "mwana". Kotero mumutu mwanga, ndikupita ku ultrasound yoyamba, ndinali kuyembekezera mwana. Kupatula kuti katswiri wa radiyo anatiuza, adadi ndi ine, kuti tinalipo makanda awiri! Ndiyeno panadza kugwedezeka. Titakhala ndi msonkhano wina ndi mnzake, tidauzana kuti ndizabwino, koma tipanga bwanji? Tinadzifunsa mafunso ambiri: kusintha galimoto, nyumba, momwe tingasamalire ana aang'ono awiri ... Malingaliro onse oyambirira, pamene tikuganiza kuti tidzakhala ndi mwana mmodzi, agwera m'madzi. Ndidali ndi nkhawa, ndimayenera kugula chowongolera pawiri, kuntchito, kodi akuluakulu anga akuti chiyani ... Nthawi yomweyo ndinaganiza za bungwe lothandiza la moyo watsiku ndi tsiku komanso kulandira ana.
Kubweretsa bwino ndikubwerera kunyumba
Mwachiwonekere, ndi abambo, tinazindikira mwamsanga kuti malo omwe timakhala pamodzi sakugwirizana ndi kubwera kwa mapasa.. Kuonjezera apo, panthawi yomwe ndinali ndi pakati, chinthu champhamvu chinandichitikira: Ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri chifukwa sindinkamva kuti m'modzi mwa ana akuyenda. Ndinkakhulupirira mu imfa ya chiberekero kwa mmodzi mwa awiriwa, zinali zoopsa. Mwamwayi, pamene tikuyembekezera mapasa, timatsatiridwa nthawi zonse, ma ultrasound ali pafupi kwambiri. Zimenezi zinandilimbikitsa kwambiri. Bambowo analipo kwambiri, ankandiperekeza nthawi zonse. Kenako Inoa ndi Eglantine anabadwa, ndinabereka pa masabata 35 ndi masiku 5. Zonse zinayenda bwino kwambiri. Abambo anali pamenepo, okhudzidwa, ngakhale zinsinsi sizinali pamisonkhano ya amayi oyembekezera. Pali anthu ambiri panthawi yobereka komanso pambuyo pake pobereka mapasa.
Titafika kunyumba, zonse zinali zokonzeka kulandira makandawo: mabedi, zipinda zogona, mabotolo, zida ndi zida. Bambowo ankagwira ntchito pang’ono, anali nafe mwezi woyamba. Anandithandiza kwambiri, amayendetsa zinthu zambiri, monga kugula, zakudya, anali m'gulu, aang'ono mu kulera ana aang'ono. Pamene ndimadya zakudya zosakaniza, kuyamwitsa ndi kuyamwitsa botolo, adapereka botolo usiku, adadzuka, kuti ndipumule.
More libido
Mwamsanga, vuto lalikulu linayamba kulemetsa banjali, ndipo kunali kusowa kwanga kwa libido. Ndinali nditawonjeza makilogalamu 37 ndili ndi pakati. Sindinadziŵenso thupi langa, makamaka m’mimba mwanga. Ndinasunga zizindikiro za mimba yanga yoyembekezera kwa nthawi yayitali, osachepera miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Mwachionekere, ndinali nditasiya kudzidalira, monga mkazi, ndi kugonana ndi atate wa anawo. Ndinadzipatula pang'onopang'ono ku kugonana. M’miyezi isanu ndi inayi yoyambirira, palibe chimene chinachitika m’moyo wathu wapamtima. Kenako, tinayamba kugonana, koma zinali zosiyana. Ndinali wovuta, ndinali ndi episiotomy, yomwe inandilepheretsa kugonana. Bambowo anayamba kundiimba mlandu. Kumbali yanga, ndinalephera kupeza mawu oyenerera oti ndimufotokozere vuto langa. M'malo mwake, ndinali ndi zodandaula zambiri kuposa kutsagana ndi kumvetsetsa kuchokera kwa iye. Ndiyeno, mwanjira ina, tinali kusangalala, makamaka pamene tinali kutali ndi nyumba, pamene tinali kupita kumidzi. Titangofika kwina, kunja kwa nyumba, ndipo makamaka kuchokera ku moyo wa tsiku ndi tsiku, tonsefe tinapezana. Tinali ndi mzimu womasuka, tinkatsitsimutsa zinthu mwakuthupi mosavuta. Ngakhale zili choncho, nthawi yondiimba mlandu yakhudza ubale wathu. Anakhumudwa ngati mwamuna ndipo kumbali yanga ndinkangoganizira za udindo wanga monga mayi. Zowona, ndinali wotanganidwa kwambiri monga mayi ndi ana anga aakazi. Koma ubwenzi wanga sunalinso wofunika kwambiri kwa ine. Panali kulekana pakati pa ine ndi atate, makamaka popeza ndinali wotopa kwambiri, ndinali kugwira ntchito mu gawo lotopetsa kwambiri. Poyang'ana kumbuyo, Ndikuzindikira kuti sindinasiyepo udindo wanga monga mkazi wokangalika, monga mayi, ndinali kutsogolera chirichonse. Koma zinandiwonongera udindo wanga monga mkazi. Ndinalibenso chidwi ndi moyo waukwati wanga. Ndinaika maganizo anga pa udindo wanga monga mayi wachipambano ndi ntchito yanga. Ine ndimangonena za izo. Ndipo popeza sungakhale pamwamba m'madera onse, ndinapereka moyo wanga monga mkazi. Ndinkatha kuona zambiri kapena zochepa zomwe zikuchitika. Zizolowezi zina zinayamba kugwira ntchito, ndipo tinalibenso moyo waukwati. Anandichenjeza za mavuto athu apamtima, akusowa kugonana. Koma ndinalibenso chidwi ndi mawu ameneŵa kapena za kugonana mwachisawawa.
Ndinatopa kwambiri
Mu 2011, ndinachotsa mimba, kutsatira "mwangozi" mimba yoyambirira. Tinaganiza kuti tisaisunge, chifukwa cha zomwe tinkakumana nazo ndi mapasawo. Kuyambira nthawi imeneyo, sindinkafunanso kugonana, kwa ine zinkatanthauza "kutenga mimba". Monga bonasi, kubwerera kuntchito kunathandizanso kuti banjali likhale losiyana. M'mawa ndinadzuka 6am ndinali ndikukonzeka ndisanamudzutse mtsikana ujas. Ndinasamalira kusamalira bukhu losinthana ndi nanny ndi atate wa ana, ndinakonzekeratu chakudya chamadzulo kotero kuti nanny amangosamalira kusamba kwa atsikana ndi kuwapangitsa kudya ndisanabwerere. Kenako 8:30 am, ponyamuka kupita ku nazale kapena kusukulu, ndipo pa 9:15 am, ndinafika ku ofesi. Ndinkabwera kunyumba cha m’ma 19:30 pm Nthawi ya 20:20 pm, atsikanawo anali atagona, ndipo tinkadya ndi abambo cha m’ma 30:22 pm Pomaliza, nthawi ya 30:2014 pm, tsiku lomaliza. Ndinagona ndipo ndinagona. kugona. Unali nyimbo yanga yatsiku ndi tsiku, mpaka XNUMX, chaka chomwe ndidatopa kwambiri. Ndinakomoka madzulo ena ndikuchokera kuntchito, wotopa, ndikusowa mpweya chifukwa cha kayimbidwe kopenga kameneka pakati pa akatswiri ndi moyo wanga. Ndinatenga tchuthi chambiri chodwala, kenako ndidasiya kampani yanga ndipo ndikadali panyengo yopanda ntchito pakadali pano. Ndimatenga nthawi kuti ndiganizire zomwe zachitika m'zaka zitatu zapitazi. Lero, ndikuganiza kuti zomwe ndaphonya kwambiri muubwenzi wanga ndi zinthu zosavuta pamapeto pake: kukoma mtima, thandizo latsiku ndi tsiku, thandizo lochokera kwa abambo. Chilimbikitso, mawu ngati “osadandaula, zikhala bwino, tifika”. Kapena kuti andigwire dzanja, kuti andiuze kuti "Ndili pano, ndiwe wokongola, ndimakukonda", nthawi zambiri. M'malo mwake, nthawi zonse ankandilozera ku chifaniziro cha thupi latsopanoli, ku mapaundi anga owonjezera, anandifanizitsa ndi akazi ena, omwe atakhala ndi ana, adakhalabe achikazi ndi ochepa. Koma pomalizira pake, ndimaganiza kuti ndinali nditasiya kumudalira, ndinaganiza kuti ndiye anali ndi mlandu. Mwina ndikanawona kutsika pamenepo, osadikirira kupsa mtima. Ndinalibe wolankhula naye, mafunso anga anali akudikirabe. Pamapeto pake, zimakhala ngati nthawi yatilekanitsa, inenso ndili ndi udindo, aliyense ali ndi gawo lake laudindo, pazifukwa zosiyanasiyana.
Pamapeto pake, ndinayamba kuganiza kuti ndizosangalatsa kukhala ndi atsikana, mapasa, koma zovuta kwambiri. Awiriwa ayeneradi kukhala amphamvu, olimba kuti adutse izi. Ndipo koposa zonse zomwe aliyense amavomereza kusokonezeka kwakuthupi, m'thupi komanso m'maganizo komwe izi zikuyimira ”.