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Gawo 41: "Kutsimikiza kwa mphindi khumi kumatha kukhala kwamphamvu kuposa zaka khumi zokayika"
Mitundu 88 ya anthu osangalala
M'mutu uno wa «Masitepe 88 a Anthu Osangalala» ndikufotokozera momwe mungachokere panjira zonse zomwe zimakulepheretsani kupita patsogolo.
Gawo ili likuuzani nkhani yowona. Zili choncho nkhani ya nzanga Manuel y limafotokoza momwe mphindi khumi zotsimikizira kukhala zamphamvu kuposa zaka khumi zakukayikira. Ndi kuphatikiza angapo yapita Masitepe, monga izo zimagwiritsa ntchito zake zambiri mfundo. Uthenga wa m’nkhaniyi uli ndi mphamvu zosintha moyo wanu, kukulimbikitsani kuchita zinthu zimene simunachitepo kapena kusokoneza chizolowezi chanu. Ndi mbiri ya saxophone. Iyi ndi nkhani yochokera pakamwa pa Manuel ...
Zaka zingapo zapitazo ndinadzilonjeza ndekha kuti ichi chinali chaka chomaliza cha moyo wanga kuti sindidzadziwa kuimba saxophone. Ndinali wolakwa. Ndinalephera chaka chimenecho, ndi chotsatira, ndi chotsatira. Kwa zaka khumi ndinagonjetsedwa pankhondo yomwe ndinasiya kale kuti ndipambane. Koma ndinaphonya chida chachikulu chimene munthu aliyense ali nacho: mphamvu yotsimikiza. Tsiku lina ukadzuka m’maŵa, unayang’ana pamaso pa mdani uja wotchedwa ulesi, n’kumuuza kuti: “Pepani, koma ndatsimikiza kuti lero ndapambana. Mumayamba ngati sitima yopanda mabuleki ikamayenda pang'ono. Imathamanga movutikira, koma palibe amene angailetsenso.
Umu ndi momwe zinachitikira… Linali Tsiku la Mafumu Atatu ndipo ndinaganiza zodzipatsa ndekha saxophone. Ndidagula chidacho pa intaneti, ndipo patatha masiku angapo ndidachilandira kunyumba kwanga nthawi ya 13.55:14.00 pm Pa 16.00:XNUMX pm ndidapita pa intaneti kuti ndipeze wina (aliyense) kuti andiphunzitse kuyisewera. , popeza sindimadziwa. Nthawi ya XNUMX:XNUMX pm ndidachita kalasi ya ola limodzi ndi mphunzitsi wopusa kwambiri: wovala nsapato wa mainchesi anayi, ma sneaker ndi malaya a skateboarder, komanso wochepera zaka makumi awiri. Inali yoyamba yomwe ndinaipeza. "Ndili ndi zolinga ziwiri: choyamba ndikuphunzira kusewera saxophone lero. Chachiwiri ndikusewera solo yodziwika bwino ya saxophone m'mbiri, "Kunong'ona mosasamala". O, ndi kumvetsa izo maora twente-foro asanadutse, “Ine ndinamuuza iye moona mtima konse mu dziko, mwamsanga pamene ine ndinatsegula chitseko cha nyumba yanga. Pambuyo pake anandiuza kuti atamva cholinga changa choyamba, anaganiza kuti ndangosutako kenakake ndipo chachiwiri anangonditsimikizira kuti ndine wamisala.
Anandifotokozera momwe ndingasindikize pakamwa kuti mpweya usatuluke, pomwe cholemba chilichonse chinali pati, momwe angayikitsire manja, momwe angagwirire chida, kuwomba, kulumikiza dzino ndi milomo. Ndinkachita chidwi ndi chilichonse, ndipo ndinayesetsa kuchita zimene iye ankachita, koma sizinaphule kanthu. Sikanatha kutulutsa ngakhale phokoso limodzi! Osati pa faifi, kapena sikisi, kapena XNUMX koloko masana ... Pokhapokha ndi iye patsogolo panga ndinatha kuchotsa mantha angapo a chinachake, ngati si nyimbo, ndiye phokoso. Madzulo ena onse, nditayesa ndekha ndekha, ndinakhumudwa. Pomalizira pake, cha m’ma XNUMX koloko masana ndinayamba kumveketsa mawu abwino kwambiri; ndipo ndinadabwa, pamene oyamba anawomba, otsalawo anafika osati movutikira, koma momasuka. Zili ngati kukumba mamita khumi osapeza golide ndiyeno nkupeza mgodi wonse kutsika ndi sentimita imodzi. Zomwe chumacho chimakupatsani ndi centimita yomaliza, koma kuyenera kwake sikuli kokulirapo kuposa chikwi cham'mbuyomu.
Sindinakhulupirire, koma ndinali nditakwanitsa cholinga changa choyamba. Tsiku lotsatira ndinapitirizabe kuseŵera, ndipo pambuyo pa unyinji wochuluka wa matepi akuyesa kutenga nyimbo imodzi mosalephera, potsirizira pake ndinakhoza kutenga bwino lomwe “kunong’ona kwanga kwamtengo wapatali” kwamtengo wapatali. Kodi idaseweredwa bwino? Mwamtheradi. Zinamveka zoopsa. Kodi ndinayamba kuyisewera pambali? Ndikulakalaka. Ndidayenera kuzijambulitsa m'machunks ndikumangirira ma chunks kuti ndiwombera komaliza, koma zinalibe kanthu. Ndinali nditakwanitsa ndipo palibe amene akanatha kuchotsa kukoma kwa chigonjetso. Ndinagona pa sofa ... ndikumwetulira.
Patatha mwezi umodzi ndinali mu zokambirana pa Radio Nacional de España ndipo anandipempha nyimbo zina zomwe ndinajambula. Sindinachedwe. Inali nyimbo yanga yoyipa kwambiri ... koma chochita changa chachikulu kwambiri. Mungadabwe kuti ndinakwanitsa bwanji kuthetsa ulesi wa zaka khumi. Nawa malangizo anga:
- Musadzifunse nokha "chifukwa inde?" Nenani “bwanji osatero?”
- Mukafuna kusewera saxophone, piyano kapena gitala, musalole kuti ubongo uganize. Ingogwirani chidacho ndikufika kwa icho.
- Chokhacho chomwe chimakulekanitsani kuchita zomwe simunachite ndi… mphindi zisanu.
- Lembani papepala ndi zilembo zazikulu: "Ndikhoza?"; ndiyeno chotsani mafunso onse awiri.
Ndisanayiwale. Zolemba ziwiri zosafunikira za mnzanga. Choyamba n’chakuti, ngakhale kuti nkhaniyi ndi yeniyeni, dzina lake si Manuel. Chachiwiri ndi chakuti ... amakhala pagalasi langa. (Ngakhale kuti chofunika kwambiri ndi protagonist).
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@Angelo
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