Cholinga changa chachikulu ndi chofanana ndi cha abambo anga: Thanzi la Lucas, koma ndikudabwa ndi mafunso ena: kodi sindikanadzipereka makamaka kwa ine ndekha? Kodi siingakhale mphatso yodzifunira yokha yomwe imabwera kudzakonza mimba yovuta kuyambira pomwe Lucas anabadwa msanga? Ndiyenera kukambirana za ulendo wamkati uwu ndi mwamuna wanga wakale. Pomaliza, tikambirana ndipo ndakhumudwa ndikukhumudwa ndi zomwe zatuluka. Kwa iye, kaya ndi wopereka ndalama kapena ine, ndi "chimodzimodzi". Iye amangofotokoza nkhaniyo potengera thanzi la mwana wathu. Mwamwayi, ndili ndi anzanga amene ndimakambirana nawo zinthu zauzimu. Ndi iwo, ndimadzutsa umuna wa chiwalo ngati impso ndipo ndimamaliza kunena kuti zingakhale bwino ngati chopereka choperekedwa kwa Lucas, yemwe akufunika kudula chingwe ndi amayi ake, chimachokera kwa abambo ake. Koma ndikamufotokozera ex wanga, zimandivuta. Anandiwona wolimbikitsidwa, ndipo mwadzidzidzi ndimamuwonetsa kuti adzakhala wopereka bwino kuposa ine. Impso zimayimira mizu yathu, cholowa chathu. Mu mankhwala achi China, mphamvu ya impso ndi mphamvu ya kugonana. Mu nzeru zaku China, impso imasunga tanthauzo la kukhala… Kotero ine ndikutsimikiza, iye kapena ine, siziri zofanana. Chifukwa mu mphatso iyi, aliyense amachita mawonekedwe osiyana, opatsidwa chizindikiro chake. Tiyenera kuwona kupyola chiwalo chathupi chomwe chili “chofanana”. Ndimayesetsanso kumufotokozera zifukwa zanga, koma ndimamva kuti wakwiya. N’kutheka kuti sakufunanso kupereka chopereka chimenechi, koma wasankha kuti atero. Koma pamapeto pake, mayeso azachipatala amakhala abwino kuposa chopereka chochokera kwa ine. Kotero ine ndidzakhala wopereka.
Ndikuwona chopereka cha chiwalo ichi ngati ulendo woyambira ndipo ndi nthawi yolengeza kwa mwana wanga kuti ndikhala wopereka. Amandifunsa chifukwa chake ine osati abambo ake: Ndimafotokoza kuti pachiyambi, malingaliro anga adatenga malo ochulukirapo ndikukulitsa nkhani yanga yachimuna ndi yachikazi yomwe amamvetsera ndi khutu losokoneza: sizinthu zake. kutanthauzira uku! Kunena zoona, ndinaona kuti n’koyenera kuti bambo ake anali ndi mwayi “wobereka” popeza kuti ineyo ndi amene ndinali ndi mwayi umenewu kwa nthawi yoyamba. Mafunso ena amadza mukapereka impso. Ndikupereka, chabwino, koma zili kwa mwana wanga kutsatira machiritso ake kuti asakanidwe. Ndipo ndimazindikira kuti nthawi zina ndimakwiya ndikamuona kuti ndi wosakhwima. Ndikufuna kuti ayeze kukula kwa mchitidwewu, kukhala wokonzeka kulandira, ndiko kuti, kuti adziwonetse yekha wokhwima ndi udindo pa thanzi lake. Pamene kumuika akuyandikira, ndimakhala ndi nkhawa kwambiri.
Ndi tsiku lamphamvu lamalingaliro. Opaleshoniyo iyenera kukhala maola atatu, ndipo timapita ku OR nthawi yomweyo. Ndikatsegula maso anga m’chipinda chochira n’kukumana ndi maso ake okongola abuluu, ndimasamba ali bwino. Kenaka timagawana ma tray onyansa a ICU opanda mchere, ndipo mwana wanga wamwamuna amanditcha "amayi ake ausiku" pamene ndimatha kudzuka ndikumukumbatira. Timapirira jekeseni wonyansa wa anticoagulant palimodzi, timaseka, timawomberana, timakhala pafupi ndi wina ndi mzake ndipo ndi zokongola. Ndiye kubwerera kunyumba komwe kumafuna kuferedwa. Nthawi yotha nkhondo itatha. Kodi ine ndichita chiyani tsopano pamene izo zachitika? Kenako pamabwera “impso-blues”: Ndinachenjezedwa… Zikuoneka ngati kuvutika maganizo pambuyo pobereka. Ndipo ndi moyo wanga wonse umene umabwerera mmbuyo pamaso panga: ukwati unayamba pa maziko oipa, osakhutira, kudalira kwambiri maganizo, chilonda chachikulu pa kubadwa msanga kwa mwana wanga. Ndikumva kuphatikizika kwa mikwingwirima yake yamkati ndipo ndimasinkhasinkha kwa nthawi yayitali. Zimanditengera nthawi kuti ndidziuze kuti ndine mayi, kwenikweni, kuwala kumandikuta ndikunditeteza, kuti ndikulondola, kuti ndachita bwino.
Chilonda changa pa mchombo wanga ndi chokongola, chomwe chikuyimira ndi chokongola. Kwa ine, iye ndi kukumbukira. Chizindikiro chamatsenga chomwe chinandilola kuti ndiyambe kudzikonda. Inde, ndinapatsa mwana wanga mphatso, kuti amulole kukhala mwamuna, koma koposa zonse mphatso kwa ine ndekha chifukwa ulendowu ndi ulendo wamkati ndi msonkhano wopita kwa iwe mwini. Chifukwa cha mphatso imeneyi, ndakhala woona, ndipo ndimagwirizana kwambiri ndi ine ndekha. Ndikuzindikira kuti mkati mwanga, mtima wanga ukutulutsa chikondi. Ndipo ndikufuna kunena: zikomo, Moyo!