Umboni: “Mzamba anakhazika pansi nkhawa zanga”

Kutsata mimba: chifukwa chiyani ndinasankha chithandizo chapadziko lonse

“Ndinabereka ana anga awiri oyamba ku Finland. Kumeneko, amakhala aulemu kwambiri polandira mwanayo. Palibe clamping wa chingwe pamaso anasiya kugunda, kapena mwadongosolo chapamimba aspiration. Nditabwerera ku France, ndinali ndi pakati ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinayang’ana chipatala cha amayi oyembekezera kumene ndingabereke popanda chithandizo chamankhwala. Ndinaberekera chipatala cha amayi ku Givors. Mwana wanga anabadwa msanga, anali ndi mavuto aakulu ndipo tinatsala pang’ono kumutaya. Zonsezi kuti ndikuuzeni kuti nditatenga mimba yanga yachinayi, ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri. Ndakumana ndi mzamba wanga pantchito yanga. Poyamba, chithandizo chonsecho sichinandiyese kwambiri. Ndine munthu wodzichepetsa. Lingaliro loti azitsatiridwa ndi munthu yemweyo pa nthawi yonse ya mimbayo linandichititsa mantha ndipo ndinkaopanso kuti mwamuna wanga angapezeke kuti sali nawo pa awiriwa. Koma pamapeto pake kuyenda kunayenda bwino ndi Cathy moti ndimafuna ndimuyese.

"Amayi ake adandilimbitsa mtima"

Kutsata mimba kunayenda bwino kwambiri. Mwezi uliwonse ndinkapita ku ofesi yake kuti ndikakambirane naye. Mwachidule, kutsatira tingachipeze powerenga. Koma kwenikweni, zonse zinali zosiyana kwambiri. Ndinafunika kulimbikitsidwa ndipo mzamba wanga anandithandizadi kuthetsa nkhawa zanga. Chifukwa cha iye, ndinatha kunena zokhumba zanga, mmene ndinkafunira kuti mwana wanga abwere m’dziko. Mwamuna wanga, amene sanapambane kufotokoza nkhaŵa zake pambuyo pa kubadwa kwanga komaliza, anatha kukambitsirana naye, kuti adziŵe yekha. Analipo nthawi zonse, ndimatha kumuyimbira foni nthawi iliyonse ndikakumana ndi vuto. Ndikuvomereza kuti ngakhale kuti inali mimba yanga yachinayi, ndinafunika kukhala mayi. Cathy anandilimbitsa mtima. Pamene nthawiyo imayandikira, ndinali ndi ntchito zingapo zabodza. Zikuwoneka kuti izi ndizofala pa nthawi ya mimba yachinayi. Tsiku lomwe ndinataya madzi, ndinaimbira mzamba wanga 4 koloko

"Kwa nthawi yoyamba, abambo apeza malo awo pobereka"

Nditafika ku chipatala cha amayi oyembekezera, anali atafika kale, amamvetsera komanso amasamala. Ndinasangalala kwambiri kumupeza. Sindikanadziona ndikubereka ndi mzamba wina. Cathy anakhala nafe nthawi yonse yobereka ndipo Mulungu akudziwa kuti idatenga nthawi yayitali. Sanadzikakamize, ankatitsogolera mwanzeru. Kangapo konse, ankandiboola m'thupi kuti andithandize. Kwa nthawi yoyamba, mwamuna wanga wapeza malo ake. Ndinamva kuti alidi ndi ine, atatufe timamulandira mwana ameneyu. Mwana wanga atabadwa, sanalire nthawi yomweyo, anali wodekha komanso wodekha, ndinadabwa. Tinkaona kuti nayenso anamva bwino kwambiri m’chipinda choperekera zakudya. Mzamba wanga anakhudzidwa. Atanyamula mwana wanga m’manja mwake, ndinaona kuti anali woona mtima, kuti anakhudzidwadi ndi kubadwa kumeneku. Kenako, Cathy anakhalabepobe pa nthawi yobereka. Amabwera kudzandiona kamodzi pa sabata kwa mwezi woyamba. Lero tikulumikizanabe. Sindidzaiwala kubadwa kumeneku. Kwa ine, chithandizo chonsecho chakhala chondichitikira chachikulu. “

Siyani Mumakonda