“Mayi anga anandiwononga tsiku limene ndinabadwa”

Mayi anga atazindikira kuti ndinali ndi pakati pa miyezi itatu, adandifunsa ngati "ndinali wokondwa ndi kuwombera kwanga kuchokera pansi"! Akadasangalala ndikanamudziwitsa za ntchito yanga pasadakhale…, adandiuza. Miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yomaliza ya pathupi langa inadzadza ndi mphatso zamitundumitundu: zofunda zodzitetezera, magolovesi a dotolo, epuloni ya nanny ya nsalu yoyera… Kuteteza mwana wosabadwa ku zonyansa zakunja anali credo wake.

Tsiku limene ndinabadwa, ine ndi mwamuna wanga tinatumizira makolo athu ndi okondedwa athu meseji yoziziritsa kukhosi, yosonyeza kuti tikunyamuka kupita kumalo oyembekezera. Mwana wathu wamkazi Marie atabadwa, tinathera maola atatu tikusinkhasinkha pamaso pake. Apa ndi pamene mwamuna wanga anauza makolo athu. Kenako analandira chitonzo kuchokera kwa amayi anga chomwe chinathera pa kubwera kwake, mokwiya, kuchipatala ndi pafupi ndi bedi langa. “Ndikulakalaka mwana wako adzachitanso chimodzimodzi kwa iwe tsiku lina, ndakhala ndikutafuna magazi kwa maola ambiri!” Anati pambali pake, osayang'ana mwana wathu yemwe adamunyamula m'manja mwake. Amafuna kuti adziwe momwe ndinaliri, ine, kapena m'mimba mwanga, kuyang'ana komwe ndimayang'ana ndikusamala kuti ndisatembenuzire maso anga kwina. Kenako anavundukula mulu wa mphatso “zoyera”: matawulo a nsalu za terrycloth, ma bibs, magulovu a thonje, ndi chimbalangondo chokulungidwa mu pulasitiki chomwe anandiuza kuti nditetezedwe. Anali asanayang'anebe mwana wanga wamkazi.

Kenako ndinaloza mwana wanga n’kunena kuti “Ndi Mary”, ndipo anandiyankha atangoyang’ana mofulumira. “N’zoseketsa kuti timawaika zipewa. “ Ine ndinati, “Kodi wawona momwe iye aliri wokongola?” "Ndipo anandiyankha kuti:" 3,600 kg, ndi mwana wokongola, wagwira ntchito bwino. Ndinapewa kuonana ndi mwamuna wanga, amene ndinkaona kuti atsala pang’ono kuphulika. Ndiyeno bambo a mwamuna wanga anabwera limodzi ndi bambo anga ndi mchimwene wanga. Mayi anga, m’malo mochita nawo nthabwala zabwino zonse, sanalonjere aliyense ndipo anati: “Ndikuchoka, nkwamisala kukhala ambiri m’chipinda cha ana. Atachoka, ndinauza aliyense zimene zinachitika. Bambo anga, mwamanyazi, anayesa kundikhazika mtima pansi: malinga ndi iye, anali maganizo a amayi omwe analankhula! Mukuyankhula, ndinali ndi mtima wolemera, mimba yamphuno. Ndi mwamuna wanga yekha amene ankaoneka kuti amandivutitsa.

Kuchezako kutaleka, mwamuna wanga anandiuza kuti anangotsala pang’ono kumuthamangitsa koma anali wodekha kwa ine. Anabwera kunyumba kuti adzapume ndipo ndinali ndi madzulo oipa kwambiri pamoyo wanga. Ndinali ndi mwana wanga wotsutsana nane ndi chisoni chachikulu ngati mvula yamkuntho pamwamba pa mutu wanga. Ndinalowetsa mphuno yanga m'khosi mwake, ndikupempha Marie kuti andikhululukire chifukwa cha kusapeza kwanga. Ndinamulonjeza kuti sindidzamuchitira chipongwe chotere, ndipo sindidzamupweteka ngati mmene mayi anga anandichitira. Kenako ndinamuimbira foni mnzanga wapamtima yemwe anayesa kundikhazika mtima pansi. Ankafuna kuti amayi anga asawononge tsiku losangalatsa kwambiri pamoyo wanga. Ndinayenera kuvomereza kuti zinali zovuta, ngakhale zopweteka kwa iye kuti ndinakhala mayi. Koma sindinapambane. Zosatheka kusuntha ndikumwetulira pa moyo watsopanowu womwe umandiyembekezera.

Tsiku lotsatira, amayi anga ankafuna kubwera "asanacheze", ndipo ndinakana. Anandipempha kuti ndimuuze ndili ndekha, koma ndinayankha kuti mwamuna wanga amakhalapo nthawi zonse. Iye ankafuna kuti atenge malo ake, mwanjira ina. Sanathe kuyimilira kuwonekera monga ena onse, panthawi yochezera, komanso kukhala ndi malo apadera osungidwa! Mwadzidzidzi, mayi anga sanabwererenso kuchipinda cha amayi oyembekezera. Patapita masiku awiri, mwamuna wanga anamuitana. Anandiona ndili wokhumudwa kwambiri, ndipo anamupempha kuti adzandichezere. Iye anayankha kuti alibe lamulo loti alandire kuchokera kwa iye ndipo kuti nkhaniyi inali pakati pa iye ndi ine! Banja lonse linabwera, kundiyitana, koma anali amayi anga omwe ndikanawakonda kumeneko, ndi maso akumwetulira, kukamwa kodzaza ndi kuyamika mwana wanga wokondedwa. Sindinathe kudya kapena kugona, sindinathe kudzikakamiza kuti ndisangalale, ndipo ndinakumbatira mwana wanga kwa ine, kufunafuna makiyi mu kufewa kwake, uku ndikumizidwabe mwachisoni.

Nditafika kunyumba, mayi anga anafuna “kutumiza” mayi woyeretsayo kuti andithandize! Nditamuuza kuti ndi iye amene ndimamufuna, ndinadzudzulidwa. Anandiimba mlandu wokana chilichonse chochokera kwa iye. Koma matawulo a tiyi, zodzitetezera, sopo, sindinathe kumwanso! Ndinkangofuna kukumbatirana kwambiri, ndipo ndinkaona ngati ndayamba kukwiyitsa mwamuna wanga chifukwa chakuda kwanga. Anandikwiyira chifukwa chosakondwera naye ndipo ankadabwa kuti mayi anga adzasiya liti kuwononga moyo wathu. Ndinalankhula naye zambiri ndipo anali woleza mtima. Zinanditengera milungu ingapo kuti ndipite patsogolo.Koma ndinafika kumeneko pamapeto pake.

Ndinakwanitsa kuwasiya mayi anga ali m’mavuto, kuti amvetse kuti chinali chosankha chawo pamoyo osati kungosankha kumene anasankha pa tsiku limene ndinabereka. Nthawi zonse amasankha zoyipa, amawona zoyipa paliponse. Ndinadzilonjeza kuti sindidzalola kuti ukali wa mayi anga undigwerenso. Ndinaganizira nthawi zonse zomwe chimwemwe changa chinawonongeka ndi chimodzi mwa malingaliro ake, ndipo ndinazindikira kuti ndamupatsa mphamvu zambiri. Ndinathanso kutchula mawu oti "zoipa", zomwe nthawi zambiri ndinkakonda kuwiringula, kupeza mwa amayi anga mitundu yonse ya alibis yomwe inagwidwa motsatira ubwana wawo kapena m'moyo wake monga mkazi. Ndikhoza kunena lero: adandiwonongera kubadwa kwanga, sankadziwa kukhala mayi tsiku limenelo. Mwana wanga wamkazi adzandinyoza ndi zinthu zambiri zomwe akukula, koma chinthu chimodzi ndi chotsimikizika: tsiku lobadwa ake, ndidzakhalapo, ndikupezeka, ndipo ndidzakhala wofunitsitsa kuwona kamwana kakang'ono kamene kadzakhala nako. ndidzatero. adzamuuza. Ndidzati kwa iye “Chabwino kwa kamwana kameneka. Ndipo koposa zonse, ndidzanena zikomo. Zikomo pondipanga mayi, zikomo pondilekanitsa ndi mayi anga, komanso zikomo chifukwa chokhala mwana wanga.