Pali mphekesera zosiyanasiyana za kusinkhasinkha kwa Vipassana. Ena amati mchitidwewu ndi wovuta kwambiri chifukwa cha malamulo omwe osinkhasinkha amafunsidwa kuti atsatire. Chachiwiri chonena kuti Vipassana adatembenuza moyo wawo mozondoka, ndipo chachitatu amati adawona omaliza, ndipo sanasinthe konse pambuyo pa maphunzirowo.
Kusinkhasinkha kumaphunzitsidwa m'maphunziro amasiku khumi padziko lonse lapansi. Masiku ano, osinkhasinkha amakhala chete (osalankhulana kapena ndi anthu akunja), amapewa kupha, kunama ndi kugonana, amadya zamasamba zokha, sagwiritsa ntchito njira zina zilizonse, ndipo amasinkhasinkha kwa maola opitilira 10. tsiku.
Ndinatenga maphunziro a Vipassana ku Dharmashringa center pafupi ndi Kathmandu ndipo nditatha kusinkhasinkha kuchokera pamtima ndinalemba zolemba izi.
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Madzulo aliwonse tikamaliza kusinkhasinkha timabwera kuchipinda, momwe muli ma plasma awiri - imodzi ya amuna, ina ya akazi. Tikukhala pansi ndipo Bambo Goenka, mphunzitsi wosinkhasinkha, akuwonekera pawindo. Iye ndi wonenepa, amakonda zoyera, ndipo amangokhalira kukambirana nkhani zowawa m'mimba. Anasiya thupilo mu September 2013. Koma pano ali pamaso pathu pa zenera, wamoyo. Pamaso pa kamera, Goenka amachita momasuka kwambiri: amakanda mphuno yake, amawombera mphuno yake mokweza, amayang'ana mwachindunji kwa osinkhasinkha. Ndipo zikuonekadi kukhala zamoyo.
Kwa ine ndekha, ndinamutcha "agogo Goenka", ndipo kenako - "agogo" okha.
Mkuluyo anayamba nkhani yake pa dharma madzulo aliwonse ndi mawu akuti "Lero linali tsiku lovuta kwambiri" ("Lero linali tsiku lovuta kwambiri"). Nthawi yomweyo, mawu ake anali achisoni komanso achisoni moti kwa masiku awiri oyambirira ndinakhulupirira mawu amenewa. Pa tsiku lachitatu ndinalira ngati kavalo pamene ndinawamva. Inde, akungotiseka!
Sindinaseke ndekha. Kumbuyo kunali kulira kwina kwansangala. Pa anthu pafupifupi 20 a ku Ulaya amene anamvetsera maphunzirowa m’Chingelezi, ine ndi mtsikanayu tinaseka basi. Ndinatembenuka ndipo - popeza kunali kosatheka kuyang'ana m'maso - mwamsanga ndinatenga chithunzi chonse. Anali chonchi: jekete la kambuku, ma leggings apinki ndi tsitsi lofiira lopindika. Mphuno ya humpy. Ndinatembenuka. Mtima wanga unasangalala, ndiyeno nkhani yonse tinkaseka limodzi nthawi ndi nthawi. Zinali zotsitsimula kwambiri.
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M'mawa uno, pakati pa kusinkhasinkha koyamba kuyambira 4.30 mpaka 6.30 ndipo yachiwiri kuchokera 8.00 mpaka 9.00, ndinapanga nkhani.momwe ife - Azungu, Japan, America ndi Russia - timabwera ku Asia kuti tiganizire. Timapereka mafoni ndi chilichonse chomwe tidapereka kumeneko. Patapita masiku angapo. Timadya mpunga mu malo a lotus, antchito salankhula nafe, timadzuka pa 4.30 ... Chabwino, mwachidule, mwachizolowezi. Kamodzi kokha, m’maŵa, mawu olembedwa pafupi ndi holo yosinkhasinkha amawonekera: “Wamangidwa. Mpaka mutapeza chidziwitso, sitikutulutsani. ”
Nanga bwanji zikatero? Dzipulumutse wekha? Kulandira chilango cha moyo wonse?
Sinkhasinkhani kwakanthawi, mwina mudzathadi kuchitapo kanthu mumkhalidwe wovuta chonchi? Zosadziwika. Koma gulu lonse ndi mitundu yonse ya machitidwe aumunthu malingaliro anga adandiwonetsa kwa ola limodzi. Zinali zabwino.
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Madzulo tinapitanso kukacheza ndi agogo a Goenka. Ndimakonda kwambiri nkhani zake za Buddha, chifukwa zimapumira zenizeni komanso nthawi zonse - mosiyana ndi nkhani za Yesu Khristu.
Nditamvetsera agogo anga, ndinakumbukira nkhani ya m’Baibulo ya Lazaro. Mfundo yake ndi yakuti Yesu Khristu anabwera kunyumba kwa achibale a Lazaro wakufayo. Lazaro anali atatsala pang’ono kuwola, koma analira kwambiri moti Khristu anamuukitsa kuti achite chozizwitsa. Ndipo onse analemekeza Khristu, ndipo Lazaro, monga ndikumbukira, anakhala wophunzira wake.
Pano pali zofanana, kumbali imodzi, koma kumbali ina, nkhani yosiyana kwambiri ndi Goenka.
Kunali mkazi. Mwana wake anamwalira. Anapenga ndi chisoni. Anapita kunyumba ndi nyumba, nagwira mwanayo m’manja mwake ndi kuuza anthu kuti mwana wake anali m’tulo, iye sanafe. Anapempha anthu kuti amuthandize kudzuka. Ndipo anthu, powona mkhalidwe wa mayiyu, adamulangiza kuti apite ku Gautama Buddha - mwadzidzidzi akhoza kumuthandiza.
Mkaziyo anadza kwa Buddha, ndipo anaona mkhalidwe wake nati kwa iye: “Chabwino, ndikumvetsa chisoni chako. Munandikakamiza. Ndidzaukitsa mwana wanu mukapita kumudzi pompano n’kupeza nyumba imodzi imene palibe amene anamwalira pa zaka 100.”
Mayiyo anasangalala kwambiri ndipo anapita kukafunafuna nyumba yoteroyo. Analowa m’nyumba iliyonse n’kumakumana ndi anthu amene ankamuuza za chisoni chawo. M’nyumba imodzi, bambo, yemwe ankasamalira banja lonse, anamwalira. Wina, mayi, wachitatu, wina wamng'ono ngati mwana wake. Mayiyo anayamba kumvetsera ndi kumvera chisoni anthu amene ankamuuza za chisoni chawo, ndipo ankathanso kuwauza za iyeyo.
Atadutsa nyumba zonse 100, adabwerera kwa Buddha nati, "Ndikudziwa kuti mwana wanga wamwalira. Ndili ndi chisoni, monga anthu akumudzi aja. Tonsefe tili ndi moyo ndipo timafa. Kodi mukudziwa zoyenera kuchita kuti imfa isakhale chisoni chachikulu kwa tonsefe? Buddha adamuphunzitsa kusinkhasinkha, adawunikiridwa ndikuyamba kuphunzitsa kusinkhasinkha kwa ena.
O…
Mwa njira, Goenka analankhula za Yesu Khristu, Mneneri Muhammadi, monga "anthu odzaza ndi chikondi, mgwirizano, mtendere." Ananena kuti munthu yekha amene mulibe dontho laukali kapena mkwiyo sangamve kudana ndi anthu amene amamupha (tikulankhula za Khristu). Koma kuti zipembedzo za dziko zataya chiyambi chimene anthu odzala ndi mtendere ndi chikondi ananyamula. Mipingo yalowa m'malo mwa zomwe zikuchitika, zopereka kwa milungu - gwirani ntchito nokha.
Ndipo pankhaniyi, agogo Goenka adanenanso nkhani ina.
Bambo a mnyamata mmodzi anamwalira. Bambo ake anali munthu wabwino, mofanana ndi tonsefe: kamodzi anakwiya, kamodzi anali wabwino ndi wokoma mtima. Iye anali munthu wamba. Ndipo mwana wake anamkonda iye. Iye anabwera kwa Buddha nati, “Wokondedwa Buddha, ine ndikufunadi kuti bambo anga apite kumwamba. Kodi mungapange izi?"
Buddha adamuuza kuti ndi kulondola kwa 100%, sakanatha kutsimikizira izi, ndipo palibe amene angakwanitse. Mnyamatayo anaumirira. Ananenanso kuti ma brahmins ena adamulonjeza kuti adzachita miyambo ingapo yomwe ingayeretse moyo wa abambo ake ku machimo ndikuupangitsa kukhala wopepuka kotero kuti kudzakhala kosavuta kuti alowe kumwamba. Iye ali wokonzeka kulipira zambiri kwa Buddha, chifukwa mbiri yake ndi yabwino kwambiri.
Kenako Buddha adati kwa iye, "Chabwino, pita kumsika ukagule miphika inayi. Ikani miyala iwiriyo, ndi kuthiramo mafuta ena awiriwo, ndi kubwera. Mnyamatayo anachoka ali wosangalala kwambiri, ndipo anauza aliyense kuti: “Buddha analonjeza kuti akathandiza mzimu wa atate wanga kupita kumwamba!” Anachita zonse n’kubwerera. Pafupi ndi mtsinje, kumene Buddha anali kumuyembekezera, khamu la anthu ochita chidwi ndi zimene zinali kuchitika linali litasonkhana kale.
Buddha ananena kuika miphika pansi pa mtsinje. Mnyamatayo anachita izo. Buddha anati, "Tsopano aswe." Mnyamatayo anamiranso n’kuswa mapoto. Mafutawo anayandama, ndipo miyalayo inakhalabe kwa masiku angapo.
“Ndimo momwemonso ndi malingaliro ndi malingaliro a atate ako,” anatero Buddha. “Ngati anadzipangira yekha, ndiye kuti moyo wake umakhala wopepuka ngati mafuta, ndipo umakwera kufika pamlingo wofunikira, ndipo ngati anali munthu woipa, miyala yoteroyo imapangidwa mkati mwake. Ndipo palibe amene Angasinthe miyala kukhala mafuta, palibe mulungu, kupatula atate wako.
- Kotero inu, kuti mutembenuzire miyala kukhala mafuta, gwirani ntchito nokha, - agogo anamaliza nkhani yake.
Tinadzuka ndikukagona.
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Lero m’mawa nditadya kadzutsa, ndinaona mndandanda pafupi ndi khomo la chipinda chodyeramo. Inali ndi mizati itatu: dzina, nambala ya chipinda, ndi "zomwe mukufuna." Ndinaima n’kuyamba kuwerenga. Zinapezeka kuti atsikana ozungulira nthawi zambiri amafunikira mapepala akuchimbudzi, mankhwala otsukira mano ndi sopo. Ndinaganiza kuti zingakhale bwino kulemba dzina langa, nambala ndi "mfuti imodzi ndi chipolopolo chimodzi chonde" ndikumwetulira.
Ndikuwerenga mndandandawo, ndinapeza dzina la mnansi wanga yemwe adaseka titawonera kanema ndi Goenka. Dzina lake anali Josephine. Nthawi yomweyo ndinamutcha Leopard Josephine ndipo ndinamva kuti anasiya kukhala kwa ine akazi ena onse makumi asanu pa maphunziro (pafupifupi 20 Azungu, Arasha awiri, kuphatikizapo ine, pafupifupi 30 Nepalese). Kuyambira pamenepo, kwa Leopard Josephine, ndakhala ndikusangalatsidwa mumtima mwanga.
Kale madzulo, nthawi yopuma pakati pa kusinkhasinkha, ndinayima ndikumva fungo la maluwa akuluakulu oyera.
mofanana ndi fodya (monga momwe maluwawa amatchulidwira ku Russia), kukula kwake kokha ndi nyali ya tebulo, monga Josephine anandithamangira ndikudutsa mofulumira. Anayenda mofulumira kwambiri, popeza kunali koletsedwa kuthamanga. Anayenda mozungulira kwambiri - kuchokera ku holo yosinkhasinkha kupita ku chipinda chodyera, kuchokera ku chipinda chodyera kupita ku nyumbayo, kuchokera ku nyumba yomanga masitepe kupita kuholo yosinkhasinkha, komanso kachiwiri. Azimayi ena anali kuyenda, gulu lonse la iwo linali litaima pamwamba pa masitepe a kutsogolo kwa mapiri a Himalaya. Mayi wina wa ku Nepal anali kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi nkhope yodzaza ndi ukali.
Josephine anathamanga kundidutsa kasanu ndi kamodzi, ndiyeno anakhala pa benchi ndi kunjenjemera thupi lonse. Anagwira ma leggings ake apinki m'manja mwake, akudziphimba ndi chikopa cha tsitsi lofiira.
Kuwala komaliza kwa kulowa kwa dzuwa kowala kwa pinki kunalowa m'malo mwa buluu wamadzulo, ndipo gong la kusinkhasinkha kunamvekanso.
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Patatha masiku atatu tikuphunzira kuyang'ana mpweya wathu osati kuganiza, ndi nthawi yoti tiyese kumva zomwe zikuchitika ndi thupi lathu. Tsopano, posinkhasinkha, timawona zomverera zomwe zimatuluka m'thupi, kupititsa chidwi kuchokera kumutu mpaka kumapazi ndi kumbuyo. Panthawiyi, zotsatirazi zinamveka bwino za ine: Ndilibe vuto lililonse ndi zomverera, ndinayamba kumva zonse tsiku loyamba. Koma kuti musalowe nawo muzomverera izi, pali mavuto. Ngati ndikutentha, ndiye, ndikutentha, ndikutentha kwambiri, ndikutentha kwambiri, ndikutentha kwambiri. Ngati ndikumva kugwedezeka ndi kutentha (ndipo ndikumvetsa kuti zomvererazi zimagwirizanitsidwa ndi mkwiyo, popeza ndikumverera kwaukali komwe kumatuluka mkati mwanga), ndiye momwe ndikumvera! Zonse ndekha. Ndipo patatha ola limodzi ndikudumpha koteroko, ndikumva kutopa kwambiri, ndikusowa mtendere. Zen mumakamba za chani? Eee… Ndikumva ngati phiri lomwe limaphulika sekondi iliyonse ya kukhalapo kwake.
Zomverera zonse zakhala zowala nthawi 100 komanso zamphamvu, malingaliro ambiri ndi zomverera zathupi zakale zimatuluka. Mantha, kudzimvera chisoni, mkwiyo. Kenako amadutsa ndipo zatsopano zimatuluka.
Mawu a Agogo Goenka amamveka pa okamba nkhani, akumabwerezabwereza chinthu chomwecho: “Ingoyang’anani kupuma kwanu ndi mmene mukumvera. Malingaliro onse akusintha” (“Ingoyang’anani mpweya wanu ndi mmene mukumvera. Malingaliro onse asinthidwa”).
O uwu…
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Zofotokozera za Goenka zinakhala zovuta kwambiri. Tsopano nthawi zina ndimapita kukamvera malangizo m'Chirasha pamodzi ndi mtsikana wina dzina lake Tanya (tinakumana naye tisanayambe maphunziro) ndi mnyamata mmodzi.
Maphunziro amachitikira ku mbali ya amuna, ndipo kuti mulowe mu holo yathu, muyenera kudutsa gawo la amuna. Zinakhala zovuta kwambiri. Amuna ali ndi mphamvu zosiyana. Amakuyang'anani, ndipo ngakhale amasinkhasinkha ngati inu, maso awo akuyenda motere:
- chiuno,
- nkhope (yolankhula bwino)
- chifuwa, chiuno.
Sachita dala, ndi chikhalidwe chawo basi. Sandifuna, samandiganizira, zonse zimachitika zokha. Koma kuti ndidutse gawo lawo, ndimadziphimba ndi bulangeti, ngati chophimba. Ndizodabwitsa kuti m'moyo wamba pafupifupi sitimva malingaliro a anthu ena. Tsopano kuyang'ana kulikonse kumakhala ngati kukhudza. Ndinkaganiza kuti akazi achisilamu sakhala moipa kwambiri atavala chophimba.
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Ndinachapa ndi akazi achi Nepal madzulo ano. Kuyambira khumi ndi imodzi mpaka imodzi tili ndi nthawi yaulere, zomwe zikutanthauza kuti mutha kutsuka zovala zanu ndikusamba. Azimayi onse amatsuka mosiyana. Azimayi a ku Ulaya amatenga mabeseni ndikupita ku udzu. Kumeneko amagwada ndi kuviika zovala zawo kwa nthawi yaitali. Nthawi zambiri amakhala ndi ufa wosamba m'manja. Azimayi a ku Japan amachapa zovala zowoneka bwino (nthawi zambiri amakhala oseketsa, amatsuka mano kasanu patsiku, amapinda zovala zawo mulu, nthawi zonse amakhala oyamba kusamba).
Chabwino, pamene tonse titakhala paudzu, akazi a ku Nepal akugwira zipolopolozo ndi kubzala chigumula chenicheni pafupi nawo. Amapaka salwar kameez (chovala chadziko, chimawoneka ngati thalauza lotayirira ndi malaya aatali) ndi sopo mwachindunji pa tile. Choyamba ndi manja, kenako ndi mapazi. Kenako amagubuduza zovalazo ndi manja amphamvu m’mitolo yansalu n’kuzimenya pansi. Masamba amawuluka mozungulira. Anthu a ku Ulaya mwachisawawa amabalalika. Amayi ena onse aku Nepal ochapa samachita mwanjira iliyonse pazomwe zikuchitika.
Ndipo lero ndinaganiza zoika moyo wanga pachiswe ndikusamba nawo. Kwenikweni, ndimakonda kalembedwe kawo. Ndinayambanso kuchapa zovala pansi, ndikuzipondaponda popanda nsapato. Azimayi onse a ku Nepal anayamba kundiyang’ana nthawi ndi nthawi. Woyamba, kenako winayo anandigwira ndi zovala zawo kapena kuthira madzi kotero kuti mulu wa splash unawulukira pa ine. Kodi inali ngozi? Nditagubuduza tourniquet ndikuyimenya bwino pa sinki, mwina adandilandira. Osachepera palibe wina yemwe adandiyang'ana, ndipo tinapitiliza kusamba pamtunda womwewo - palimodzi komanso bwino.
Titatsuka zinthu zingapo, mayi wamkulu pa maphunzirowo anabwera kwa ife. Ndinamutcha kuti Momo. Ngakhale mu agogo a ku Nepalese angakhale osiyana, ndiye ndinapeza momwe - awa ndi mawu ovuta komanso osakongola kwambiri. Koma dzina lakuti Momo linali loyenera kwa iye.
Anali wofewa, wowonda komanso wowuma, wofufutidwa. Anali ndi luko lalitali la imvi, mawonekedwe ake owoneka bwino komanso manja olimbikira. Ndipo Momo anayamba kusamba. Sizikudziwika chifukwa chake adasankha kuchita izi osati mu shawa, yomwe inali pafupi ndi iye, koma pomwepa ndi masinki pamaso pa aliyense.
Anali atavala sari ndipo anayamba kumuvula top. Atatsala mu sari youma pansi, anaviika kansalu m'beseni n'kuyamba kupukuta. Pamiyendo yowongoka kotheratu, anaweramira m’chiuno ndi kuchapa zovala zake mwachidwi. Chifuwa chake chopanda kanthu chinali kuwoneka. Ndipo mabere amenewo ankaoneka ngati mabere a mtsikana wamng’ono, waung’ono ndi wokongola. Khungu lakumbuyo kwake linkaoneka ngati lang’aluka. Zolimba zolimba zotuluka pamapewa. Anali wothamanga kwambiri, wosavuta, wolimbikira. Atatsuka pamwamba pa sari ndi kuvala, adatsitsa tsitsi lake ndikuliviika mu beseni lomwelo lamadzi a sopo momwe sariyo adangokhalira. N’chifukwa chiyani amasunga madzi ambiri chonchi? Kapena sopo? Tsitsi lake linali lasiliva lochokera kumadzi a sopo, kapena mwina lochokera kudzuwa. Panthawi ina, mayi wina anadza kwa iye n’kutenga kansanza ka mtundu wina, n’kuviika m’beseni limene munali sari, n’kuyamba kusisita nsana wa Momo. Azimayiwo sanatembenukirane. Sanalankhule. Koma Momo sanadabwe n’komwe kuti akusisita msana. Atatha kusisita khungu m’ming’aluyo kwa nthawi ndithu, mayiyo anaika chigudulicho pansi n’kuchoka.
Anali wokongola kwambiri, Momo uyu. Kuwala kwadzuwa, sopo, tsitsi lalitali lasiliva ndi thupi lowonda, lolimba.
Ndinayang'ana uku ndikusisita kenakake mu beseni kuti ndiwonetsere, ndipo pamapeto pake ndinalibe nthawi yotsuka buluku langa pamene gong la kusinkhasinkha linkamveka.
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Ndinadzuka usiku chifukwa cha mantha. Mtima wanga unali kugunda ngati wamisala, m’makutu mwanga munamveka momveka bwino, m’mimba munali kutentha, ndinali ndinyowa ndi thukuta lonse. Ndinkachita mantha kuti m'chipindamo muli munthu, ndinamva zachilendo ... Kukhalapo kwa winawake ... ndinkaopa imfa. Nthawi ino pamene zonse zatha kwa ine. Kodi izi zidzachitika bwanji pathupi langa? Kodi ndidzaumva mtima wanga kuyima? Kapena mwina pali wina yemwe sachokera kuno pafupi ndi ine, sindimamuwona, koma ali pano. Atha kuwonekera pamphindi iliyonse, ndipo ndidzawona zolemba zake mumdima, maso ake oyaka, ndikumva kukhudza kwake.
Ndinkachita mantha kwambiri moti sindinkatha kusuntha, ndipo kumbali ina, ndinkafuna kuchita chinachake, chilichonse, kuti ndithetse. Dzukani msungwana wodzipereka amene takhala nafe m’nyumbayi ndi kumuuza zimene zinandichitikira, kapena tulukani panja ndi kugwedeza chinyengochi.
Pa zotsalira zina za mphamvu, kapena mwinamwake kale nditakhala ndi chizolowezi choyang'anitsitsa, ndinayamba kuyang'ana kupuma kwanga. Sindikudziwa kuti zonse zidapitilira nthawi yayitali bwanji, ndimamva mantha osaneneka ndikupuma kulikonse, mobwerezabwereza. Kuopa kumvetsetsa kuti ndine ndekha ndipo palibe amene anganditeteze ndikundipulumutsa ku mphindi, ku imfa.
Kenako ndinagona. Usiku ndinalota nkhope ya mdierekezi, inali yofiira ngati chigoba cha ziwanda chomwe ndinagula mu shopu ya alendo ku Kathmandu. Chofiira, chowala. Ndi maso okha omwe anali serious ndikundilonjeza chilichonse chomwe ndikufuna. Sindinkafuna golide, kugonana kapena kutchuka, komabe panali chinachake chimene chinandisunga molimba mu bwalo la Samsara. Zinali…
Chosangalatsa kwambiri ndichakuti ndinayiwala. Sindikukumbukira chomwe chinali. Koma ndikukumbukira kuti m'maloto ndinadabwa kwambiri: kodi ndizo zonse, chifukwa chiyani ndili pano? Ndipo maso a Mdierekezi anandiyankha kuti: “Inde.”
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Lero ndi tsiku lomaliza la chete, tsiku lakhumi. Izi zikutanthauza kuti chirichonse, mapeto a mpunga wopanda malire, kutha kwa 4-30 ndipo, ndithudi, potsiriza ndimamva mawu a wokondedwa. Ndikumva kufunika komva mawu ake, kumukumbatira ndikumuuza kuti ndimamukonda ndi mtima wanga wonse, ndikuganiza kuti ndikangoganizira zachikhumbochi pang'ono, nditha kutumiza telefoni. Mumtima uwu, tsiku lakhumi limadutsa. Nthawi ndi nthawi kumakhala kusinkhasinkha, koma makamaka.
Madzulo timakumananso ndi agogo. Pa tsikuli ali ndi chisoni kwambiri. Akunena kuti mawa tidzatha kulankhula, ndipo masiku khumi si nthawi yokwanira kuti azindikire dharma. Koma akuyembekeza chiyani kuti taphunzira kusinkhasinkha pang'ono pano. Kuti ngati, pofika kunyumba, sitikwiya kwa mphindi khumi, koma osachepera asanu, ndiye kuti izi ndizopambana kwambiri.
Agogo amatilangizanso kuti tizibwereza kusinkhasinkha kamodzi pachaka, komanso kusinkhasinkha kawiri pa tsiku, ndipo amatilangiza kuti tisakhale ngati mmodzi wa anzake a ku Varanasi. Ndipo amatiuza nkhani ya anzake.
Tsiku lina, mabwenzi a agogo a Goenka ochokera ku Varanasi adaganiza zokhala ndi nthawi yabwino ndikulemba ganyu wopalasa kuti akwere nawo pamtsinje wa Ganges usiku wonse. Usiku unafika, analowa m’ngalawamo n’kunena kwa wopalasayo kuti: “Palasa. Anayamba kupalasa, koma pambuyo pa mphindi khumi anati: “Ndikuona kuti mafunde akutinyamulira, kodi ndingaike pansi zopalasira? Anzake a Goenka analola wopalasa kutero, akumukhulupirira mosavuta. M’maŵa, dzuŵa litatuluka, anaona kuti sanacoke panyanja. Iwo anakwiya ndi kukhumudwa.
“Chotero inu,” anamaliza motero Goenka, “ndiwe wopalasa ndi amene amalemba ganyu wopalasa.” Musadzinyenge nokha paulendo wa dharma. Ntchito!
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Lero ndi madzulo omaliza kukhala kwathu kuno. Onse osinkhasinkha amapita kuti. Ndinadutsa pafupi ndi holo yosinkhasinkha ndikuyang'ana nkhope za akazi a ku Nepal. Ndinaganiza zochititsa chidwi bwanji kuti mawonekedwe amtundu wina amawoneka ngati amaundana pankhope imodzi kapena ina.
Ngakhale kuti nkhope sizikuyenda, amayiwo ali "mwa iwo okha", koma mukhoza kuyesa kulingalira khalidwe lawo ndi momwe amachitira ndi anthu omwe ali nawo pafupi. Uyu ali ndi mphete zitatu pa zala zake, chibwano chake nthawi zonse, ndipo milomo yake imakhala yokayikitsa. Zikuoneka kuti akatsegula pakamwa pake, chinthu choyamba chimene anganene n’chakuti: “Mukudziwa, anansi athu ndi zitsiru.
Kapena uyu. Zikuoneka kuti palibe, n'zoonekeratu kuti si zoipa. Kotero, kutupa ndi mtundu wopusa, wodekha. Koma mukamayang'ana, mumayang'ana momwe nthawi zonse amadyera mpunga pa chakudya chamadzulo, kapena momwe amathamangira kukalowa padzuwa kaye, kapena momwe amawonera akazi ena, makamaka Azungu. Ndipo n’zosavuta kumuyerekezera ali pamaso pa TV ya ku Nepal akunena kuti, “Mukund, anansi athu anali ndi ma TV aŵiri, ndipo tsopano ali ndi TV yachitatu. Tikadakhala ndi TV ina. ” Ndipo wotopa ndipo, mwinamwake, m’malo moumitsidwa ndi moyo woterowo, Mukund akumuyankha kuti: “Zowonadi, wokondedwa, inde, tigula TV ina.” Ndipo iye, akumenyetsa milomo yake pang'ono ngati mwana wa ng'ombe, ngati akutafuna udzu, amayang'ana TV movutikira ndipo zimakhala zoseketsa kwa iye akamamuseka, achisoni akafuna kumudetsa nkhawa ... Kapena apa ...
Koma kenako Momo anasokoneza maganizo anga. Ndinaona kuti anadutsa ndipo anayenda molimba mtima kulowera kumpanda. Chowonadi ndi chakuti msasa wathu wonse wosinkhasinkha wazunguliridwa ndi mipanda yaying'ono. Akazi ndi otchingidwa ndi amuna, ndipo tonse ndife ochokera kunja komanso nyumba za aphunzitsi. Pa mipanda yonse mungaone zolembedwa kuti: “Chonde musawoloke malire awa. Sangalalani!" Ndipo apa pali imodzi mwa mipanda iyi yomwe imalekanitsa osinkhasinkha ku kachisi wa Vipassana.
Iyinso ndi holo yosinkhasinkha, yokongola kwambiri, yokonzedwa ndi golidi komanso yofanana ndi kondomu yotambasulidwa mmwamba. Ndipo Momo anapita kumpanda uwu. Anayenda kupita kuchikwangwanicho, n’kuyang’ana uku ndi uku, ndipo—malinga ngati palibe amene akuyang’ana—anachotsa mpheteyo pachitseko cha barani ndipo mwamsanga anadutsamo. Anathamanga masitepe angapo ndikupendeketsa mutu wake moseketsa, anali kuyang'ana pakachisi. Kenako, ndikuyang'ananso m'mbuyo ndikuzindikira kuti palibe amene akumuwona (ndinayesa kuyang'ana pansi), Momo wosalimba komanso wowuma adathamanga masitepe ena 20 ndikuyamba kuyang'ana poyera pakachisi uyu. Anakwera masitepe angapo kumanzere, kenako masitepe angapo kumanja. Iye anagwedeza manja ake. Iye anatembenuza mutu wake.
Kenako ndinaona nanny akuwefumira wa akazi a ku Nepal. Akazi a ku Ulaya ndi a ku Nepal anali ndi odzipereka osiyanasiyana, ndipo ngakhale kuti zikanakhala zowona kunena kuti "odzipereka", mayiyo ankawoneka ngati nanny wokoma mtima wochokera ku zipatala za ku Russia. Anathamangira kwa Momo mwakachetechete ndikuwonetsa ndi manja ake kuti: “Bwereranso.” Momo anacheuka koma kukhala ngati sanamuone. Ndipo nanny atangomuyandikira, Momo adayamba kuyika manja ake pamtima ndikuwonetsa mawonekedwe onse kuti sanawone zizindikiro ndipo samadziwa kuti sizingatheke kulowa apa. Anapukusa mutu n’kuoneka wolakwa kwambiri.
Nchiyani pankhope pake? Ndinapitiriza kuganiza. Chinachake chonga chimenecho ... Sichikayikitsa kuti angakhale ndi chidwi kwambiri ndi ndalama. Mwina…Chabwino, inde. Ndi zophweka. Chidwi. Momo wokhala ndi tsitsi lasiliva anali wofunitsitsa kudziwa, zosatheka! Ngakhale mpanda sunathe kumuletsa.
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Lero tayankhula. Atsikana a ku Ulaya anakambirana mmene tonsefe tinamvera. Anachita manyazi kuti tonse tinabowola, tinadumphadumpha komanso tinadumphadumpha. Mtsikana wina wa ku France dzina lake Gabrielle ananena kuti sankamva chilichonse ndipo ankagona nthawi zonse. "Chani, mwamvapo kanthu?" anadabwa.
Josephine anali Joselina—ndinaŵerenga molakwa dzina lake. Ubwenzi wathu womwe unali wosalimba unatha chifukwa cha vuto la chinenero. Anapezeka kuti anali wachi Irish komanso mawu omveka bwino kwambiri chifukwa cha malingaliro anga komanso mawu othamanga kwambiri, choncho tinakumbatirana kangapo, ndipo zinali choncho. Ambiri anena kuti kusinkhasinkha kumeneku ndi gawo la ulendo wokulirapo kwa iwo. Iwo analinso mu ashrams ena. Wa ku America, yemwe adabwera kachiwiri kwa Vipassana, adanena kuti inde, zimakhala ndi zotsatira zabwino pa moyo wake. Anayamba kujambula atatha kusinkhasinkha koyamba.
Mtsikana waku Russia Tanya adakhala freediver. Iye ankagwira ntchito mu ofesi, koma kenako anayamba kudumphira mozama popanda scuba zida, ndipo iye anasefukira kotero kuti iye tsopano akudumphira mamita 50 ndipo anali pa World Championships. Pamene ananena zinazake, iye anati: “Ndimakukonda, ndigula tram.” Mawu amenewa anandigwira mtima kwambiri moti panthawiyi ndinayamba kumukonda kwambiri m’njira ya Chirasha.
Azimayi a ku Japan sankalankhula Chingelezi chilichonse, ndipo zinali zovuta kuti apitirize kukambirana nawo.
Tonse tinagwirizana pa chinthu chimodzi chokha - tinali pano kuti tithane ndi malingaliro athu. Zomwe zidatitembenuza, zidatikopa, zinali zamphamvu kwambiri, zachilendo. Ndipo tonsefe tinkafuna kukhala osangalala. Ndipo ife tikufuna tsopano. Ndipo, zikuwoneka, tinayamba kukhala pang'ono ... Zikuoneka kuti.
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Nditangotsala pang’ono kunyamuka, ndinapita kumene timamwa madzi. Azimayi achi Nepal anali ataima pamenepo. Titayamba kuyankhulana, nthawi yomweyo adadzipatula kwa amayi olankhula Chingerezi ndipo kulankhulana kunali kochepa chabe ndikumwetulira komanso kuchita manyazi "pepani".
Iwo ankakhala pamodzi nthawi zonse, anthu atatu kapena anayi pafupi, ndipo kunali kovuta kwambiri kulankhula nawo. Ndipo kunena zoona, ndinkafuna kuwafunsa mafunso angapo, makamaka popeza anthu a ku Nepalese ku Kathmandu amangoona alendo okha ngati alendo. Boma la Nepal mwachiwonekere limalimbikitsa malingaliro otere, kapena mwina chilichonse sichikuyenda bwino ndi chuma… sindikudziwa.
Koma kuyankhulana ndi anthu aku Nepalese, ngakhale kumangobwera mwadzidzidzi, kumachepetsedwa ku mgwirizano wogula ndi kugulitsa. Ndipo izi, ndithudi, ndi, choyamba, zosasangalatsa, ndipo kachiwiri, ndizotopetsa. Zonsezi, unali mwayi waukulu. Ndipo kotero ine ndinabwera kudzamwa madzi, ndinayang'ana pozungulira. Panali akazi atatu pafupi. Mtsikana wina akuchita zolimbitsa thupi zotambasula ndi mkwiyo pankhope, wina wazaka zapakati ndi mawonekedwe osangalatsa, ndipo wachitatu palibe. Ine sindikumukumbukira nkomwe iye tsopano.
Ndinatembenukira kwa mayi wina wazaka zapakati. “Pepani amayi,” ndinatero, “sindikufuna kukusokonezani, koma ndikufuna kudziŵa kanthu kena ponena za akazi a ku Nepal ndi mmene munamvera posinkhasinkha.
“Ndithudi,” iye anatero.
Ndipo izi ndi zomwe adandiuza:
"Mukuwona azimayi ambiri achikulire kapena azimayi azaka zapakati ku Vipassana, ndipo izi sizinangochitika mwangozi. Kuno ku Kathmandu, a Goenka ndi otchuka kwambiri, dera lawo silimaonedwa ngati lampatuko. Nthawi zina munthu amabwerera kuchokera ku vipassana ndipo timawona momwe munthuyo wasinthira. Amakhala wachifundo kwa ena komanso wodekha. Chifukwa chake njira iyi idatchuka ku Nepal. Chodabwitsa n’chakuti, achichepere sachita nawo chidwi kwenikweni kuposa azaka zapakati ndi okalamba. Mwana wanga akunena kuti zonsezi nzopanda pake ndipo uyenera kupita kwa katswiri wa zamaganizo ngati chinachake chalakwika. Mwana wanga wamwamuna akuchita bizinesi ku America ndipo ndife banja lolemera. Inenso ndakhala ku America kwa zaka khumi tsopano ndipo ndimabwera kuno mwa apo ndi apo kuti ndidzaone achibale anga. Mbadwo wachichepere ku Nepal uli panjira yolakwika yachitukuko. Amakonda kwambiri ndalama. Zikuwoneka kwa iwo kuti ngati muli ndi galimoto ndi nyumba yabwino, ichi ndi chisangalalo kale. Mwina izi zikuchokera ku umphawi woopsa womwe watizinga. Chifukwa chakuti ndakhala ku America kwa zaka khumi, ndimatha kuyerekeza ndi kusanthula. Ndipo ndi zomwe ndikuwona. Anthu akumadzulo amabwera kwa ife kudzafunafuna moyo wauzimu, pamene a ku Nepal amapita Kumadzulo chifukwa chakuti amafuna chisangalalo chakuthupi. Zikanakhala mwa mphamvu zanga, zonse zomwe ndikanachitira mwana wanga zikanakhala zopita naye ku Vipassana. Koma ayi, akuti alibe nthawi, ntchito yambiri.
Mchitidwe uwu kwa ife umaphatikizidwa mosavuta ndi Chihindu. Ma brahmin athu sanena kanthu za izi. Ngati mukufuna, yesetsani kukhala ndi thanzi labwino, khalani okoma mtima ndikusunganso maholide onse.
Vipassana imandithandiza kwambiri, ndimayendera kachitatu. Ndinapita ku maphunziro ku America, koma sizili zofanana, sizikusintha mozama, sizikukufotokozerani zomwe zikuchitika mozama kwambiri.
Ayi, sikuli kovuta kwa akazi achikulire kusinkhasinkha. Takhala mu malo a lotus kwa zaka mazana ambiri. Tikamadya, kusoka kapena kuchita zinthu zina. Choncho, agogo athu aakazi amakhala mosavuta mu malo awa kwa ola limodzi, zomwe sizinganene za inu, anthu ochokera m'mayiko ena. Tikuwona kuti izi ndizovuta kwa inu, ndipo kwa ife nzodabwitsa.
Mayi wina wa ku Nepal analemba imelo yanga, n’kunena kuti andiika pa facebook.
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Maphunziro atatha, tinapatsidwa zomwe tinadutsa pakhomo. Mafoni, makamera, makamera. Ambiri adabwerera kukatikati ndikuyamba kujambula zithunzi zamagulu kapena kuwombera zinazake. Ndinagwira foni yamakono m'manja mwanga ndikuganiza. Ndinkafuna kwambiri kusunga mtengo wa manyumwa wokhala ndi zipatso zachikasu kumbuyo kwa thambo lowala labuluu. Kubwerera kapena ayi? Zinkawoneka kwa ine kuti ngati nditachita izi - kuloza kamera pafoni pamtengo uwu ndikudina, ndiye kuti idzachepetsa china chake. Izi ndizodabwitsa kwambiri chifukwa m'moyo wamba ndimakonda kujambula zithunzi ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimachita. Anthu okhala ndi makamera odziwa ntchito adadutsa pafupi ndi ine, adagawana malingaliro ndikudina chilichonse chozungulira.
Tsopano patha miyezi ingapo kuchokera kumapeto kwa kusinkhasinkha, koma ndikafuna, ndimatseka maso anga, ndipo patsogolo pawo pali mtengo wamphesa wokhala ndi mphesa zonyezimira zachikasu mozungulira mlengalenga wonyezimira wabuluu, kapena ma cones a imvi. kumapiri a Himalaya pausiku wamphepo wapinki wofiyira. Ndimakumbukira ming'alu ya masitepe yomwe inatifikitsa ku holo yosinkhasinkha, ndikukumbukira bata ndi bata la holo mkatimo. Pazifukwa zina, zonsezi zinakhala zofunika kwa ine ndipo ndikukumbukira komanso zochitika kuyambira ubwana nthawi zina zimakumbukiridwa - ndikumverera kwa mtundu wina wa chisangalalo chamkati mkati, mpweya ndi kuwala. Mwina tsiku lina ndidzajambula mtengo wa manyumwa pamtima ndikuupachika mnyumba mwanga. Kwinakwake kumene kuwala kwadzuwa kumagwera kawirikawiri.
Zolemba: Anna Shmeleva.