Mbiri ya Xenia.
Ndili ndi zaka 25, ndinabereka mapasa. Panthaŵiyo, ndinali ndekha, wopanda mwamuna-mwamuna, ndinabelekera m’chipatala cha amayi aku St. Ndinabeleka osamvetsetsa kuti ana ndi ndani, ndithana nawo bwanji ndi mmene zidzasinthire moyo wanga. Atsikanawo anabadwa aang'ono kwambiri - 1100 ndi 1600. Ndi kulemera koteroko, adatumizidwa ku chipatala kwa mwezi umodzi kuti awonjezere kulemera kwa 2,5 kg. Zinali chonchi - anali atagona m'mabedi apulasitiki-makamaka, poyamba pansi pa nyali, ndinabwera kuchipatala kwa tsiku lonse, koma amalola atsikana 3-4 pa tsiku kwa mphindi 15 kuti adye. Iwo anadyetsedwa ndi mkaka anasonyeza, amene anasonyeza anthu 15 mu chipinda chimodzi theka la ola pamaso kudyetsa, pamanja ndi mapampu m`mawere. Chiwonetserocho ndi chosaneneka. Ndi anthu ochepa amene ankadziwa khalidwe ndi mwana kilogalamu, ndipo sizinachitike kuti aliyense kupempha kukhala ndi mwanayo yaitali kapena kuyamwitsa, kapena anaphulika mu chipinda mukaona kuti mwana wanu akukuwa ngati odulidwa, chifukwa imeneyi pakati feedings ndi. maola atatu ndipo ali ndi njala . Anawonjezeranso kusakaniza, osati kufunsa makamaka, koma ngakhale kumulangiza kuposa bere.
Tsopano ndamvetsetsa momwe zimakhalira ndipo sindimakonda kukumbukira, chifukwa nthawi yomweyo ndimayamba kudziimba mlandu ndipo misozi imatuluka. Kuti muzipatala za amayi oyembekezera, kuti m'zipatala sasamala za moyo wotsatira, ndi lamba wa conveyor, ndipo ngati simusamala, mwanayo adzatengedwa popanda ngakhale kupereka kuti ayang'ane pambuyo pa kubadwa. Nchifukwa chiyani simungakhale ndi nthawi yochuluka ndi mwana pamene akufunikira kwambiri, pamene iye wabadwa msanga ndipo samamvetsa kalikonse, amafuula kuchokera ku kuwala, chifukwa cha kuzizira kapena kutentha, njala ndi kusowa kwa amayi ake. , ndipo mumaimirira kuseri kwa galasi ndikuyembekezera kuwerengera kwa maola atatu! Ndinali mmodzi mwa maloboti omwe samazindikira zomwe zikuchitika ndikuchita zomwe akuuzidwa. Ndiyeno, pamene anali ndi mwezi umodzi, ndinabweretsa nkhokwe ziwirizi kunyumba. Sindinamve chikondi chochuluka ndi kulumikizana nawo. Udindo wokha wa miyoyo yawo, ndipo panthawi imodzimodziyo, ndithudi, ndinkafuna kuwapatsa zabwino kwambiri. Popeza zinali zovuta kwambiri (analira nthawi zonse, anali osamvera, anandiyitana, onse anali okangalika), ndinatopa ndikugwa kumapeto kwa tsiku, koma usiku wonse ndinadzuka pamabedi, kundigwedeza. m'manja mwanga, etc. Mwambiri, sindinagone konse. Ndikhoza kuwakuwa kapena kuwakwapula, zomwe tsopano zikuwoneka kuti ndizonyansa kwa ine (anali ndi zaka ziwiri). Koma misempha inapereka mwamphamvu. Ndinadekha mtima ndipo ndinabwerera m’maganizo pamene tinapita ku India kwa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Ndipo zinakhala zosavuta ndi iwo pokhapokha atakhala ndi abambo ndipo adayamba kumangokhalira kundichedwetsa. Izi zisanachitike, iwo pafupifupi sanachoke. Tsopano ali ndi zaka pafupifupi zisanu. Ndimawakonda kwambiri. Ndimayesetsa kuchita zonse kuti akule osati mu dongosolo, koma mu chikondi ndi ufulu. Ndiwochezeka, okondwa, okangalika, ana okoma mtima, akukumbatira mitengo 🙂 Zimakhala zovuta kwa ine nthawi zina, koma palibe mkwiyo ndi kusasamala, kutopa wamba. Ndizovuta, chifukwa ndimakhala nthawi yambiri ndi mwanayo, koma ndimadzipereka pang'ono kwa iwo, ndipo amafuna kukhala ndi ine kwambiri, samakhala ndi ine. Panthaŵi ina, sindinawapatse zambiri za ine ndekha monga momwe anafunikira kuwalola amayi kupita, tsopano akufunikira kuwirikiza katatu. Koma nditamvetsetsa izi, ndiyesera, ndipo amvetsetsa kuti ndimakhalapo nthawi zonse ndipo sindiyenera kufunsidwa ndikugawidwa. Tsopano za mwanayo. Nditakhala ndi pakati kachiwiri, ndinawerenga mulu wa mabuku okhudza kubadwa kwachibadwa ndipo ndinazindikira zolakwa zonse zomwe ndinapanga pobadwa koyamba. Chilichonse chinasintha mwa ine, ndipo ndinayamba kuwona momwe ndi kuti, ndi ndani kuti ndibereke ana. Popeza ndinali ndi pakati, ndinakhala ku Nepal, France, India. Aliyense adalangiza kubereka ku France kuti akhale ndi malipiro abwino komanso okhazikika, nyumba, ntchito, inshuwaransi, madokotala, ndi zina zambiri. Tinayesetsa kukhala kumeneko, koma sindinazikonde, ndinali pafupi kuvutika maganizo, zinali zosasangalatsa, zozizira, mwamuna wanga ankagwira ntchito, ndimayenda ndi mapasa kwa theka la tsiku, ndikulakalaka nyanja ndi dzuwa. Kenako tinaganiza kuti tisavutike n’kuthamangira ku India kwa kanthawi. Ndinapeza mzamba pa intaneti, nditayang'ana chimbale chomwe ndinazindikira kuti ndidzabereka naye. Chimbalecho chinali ndi maanja omwe ali ndi ana, ndipo kungoyang'ana kumodzi kunali kokwanira kumvetsetsa momwe onse ali okondwa komanso owoneka bwino. Anali anthu ena ndi ana ena!
Tinafika ku India, tinakumana ndi atsikana apakati pamphepete mwa nyanja, anandilangiza mzamba yemwe anali atapita kale ku Goa ndikupereka maphunziro kwa amayi apakati. Ndinali ngati nkhani, mayiyo anali wokongola, koma sindinamve kugwirizana naye. Chilichonse chinathamangira - kuti ndikhale naye ndipo osadandaula kuti ndidzasiyidwa ndekha pakubala, kapena kukhulupirira ndikudikirira "kuchokera pa chithunzi". Ndinaganiza zodalira ndikudikirira. Anafika. Tinakumana ndipo ndinayamba kukondana poyamba! Anali wokoma mtima, wosamala, ngati mayi wachiwiri: sanakakamize chilichonse ndipo, chofunika kwambiri, anali wodekha, ngati thanki, muzochitika zilizonse. Ndipo adavomeranso kubwera kwa ife kudzatiwuza zonse zomwe zimafunikira, mosiyana, osati gulu, popeza gulu la amayi apakati ndi amuna awo anali olankhula Chirasha, ndipo adatiuza zonse padera mu Chingerezi kuti iye. mwamuna angamvetse. Atsikana onse oberekera wotere anaberekera kunyumba, amuna ndi anamwino. Popanda madokotala. Ngati chilichonse, taxi imayimbidwa, ndipo aliyense amapita kuchipatala, koma sindinamvepo izi. Koma kumapeto kwa sabata ndidawona kusonkhana kwa amayi okhala ndi ana amasiku 6-10 panyanja, aliyense amasambitsa anawo m'mafunde ozizira ndipo anali okondwa kwambiri, okondwa komanso okondwa. Kubadwa kumene. Madzulo, komabe ndinazindikira kuti ndikubala (zisanachitike, kunali kutsika kwa maphunziro kwa sabata), ndinakondwera ndipo ndinayamba kuimba nyimbo zochepetsera. Mukawaimba m'malo mokuwa, ululuwo umatha. Sitinayimbe anthu aku Russia, inde, koma tidangokoka "aaaa-ooo-uuu" ndi mawu athu, momwe mukufunira. Kuyimba kozama kwambiri. Kotero ine ndinayimba motere ndewu zonse zoyesera. Amayesa ine, kunena mofatsa, kudabwa. Funso langa loyamba nditatha kukankhira koyamba linali (ndi maso ozungulira): "Ndi chiyani chimenecho?" Ndinaganiza kuti chinachake chalakwika. Mzambayo, mofanana ndi katswiri wa zamaganizo wouma mtima, akunena kuti: “Chabwino, masukani, ndiuzeni mmene munamvera, mmene zinakhalira.” Ndikunena kuti ndinatsala pang'ono kubereka hedgehog. Anakhala chete mokayikira, ndipo ndinazindikira kuti ndamenya! Ndipo IZI zidabwera kachiwiri osati komaliza - sindimayembekezera zowawa zotere. Pakadapanda mamuna wanga yemwe ndimamugwira ndi manja nthawi yonse ya kukomoka osati mzamba yemwe amati zonse zikuyenda bwino bwezi ndikanangosiya ndikudzipanga ndekha).
Nthawi zambiri, mwanayo anasambira m'nyumba inflatable dziwe pambuyo maola 8. Popanda kukuwa, zomwe zinandisangalatsa, chifukwa ana, ngati zonse zili bwino, musalire - amang'ung'udza. Anang'ung'udza chinachake ndipo nthawi yomweyo anayamba kudya mabere, mosavuta komanso mosavuta. Kenaka adamutsuka, adamubweretsa ku bedi langa, ndipo ife, ayi, osati ife - adagona, ndipo ine ndi mwamuna wanga tinakhala kunja kwa theka lina la tsiku ndi atsikana. Sitinadule chingwe cha umbilical kwa maola 12, ndiko kuti, mpaka madzulo. Ankafuna kuti aisiye kwa tsiku limodzi, koma atsikanawo ankakonda kwambiri nkhokwe imene inali pafupi ndi mwanayo m’mbale yotsekedwa. Chingwecho chinadulidwa pamene sichinagwedezeke ndipo chinayamba kuuma. Iyi ndi mfundo yofunika kwambiri. Simungadule mwachangu ngati zipatala za amayi oyembekezera. Mphindi ina yokhudza mlengalenga - tinali ndi nyimbo zachete, ndipo panalibe kuwala - makandulo ochepa okha. Pamene khanda likuwonekera kuchokera kumdima m'chipatala cha amayi oyembekezera, kuwala kumapweteka maso ake, kutentha kumasintha, phokoso liri ponseponse, amamumva, amamutembenuza, kumuika pa sikelo yozizira, ndipo makamaka kumupatsa nthawi kwa amayi ake. Ndi ife, iye anawonekera mu theka-mdima, pansi pa mawu omveka, mwakachetechete, ndipo anakhalabe pachifuwa mpaka iye anagona ... Ndipo ndi chingwe cha umbilical, chimene chikugwirizanabe ndi latuluka. Pomwe zoyesayesa zanga zidayamba, amapasa anga adadzuka ndikuchita mantha, mwamuna wanga adapita kukawakhazika mtima pansi, koma mwayi wochita izi ndikuwonetsa kuti zonse zili bwino ndi amayi anga (pafupifupi) J. Adandibweretsera, adandigwira manja ndikundilimbikitsa. Ndinanena kuti sizinandipweteke, ndipo m'kamphindi ndinayamba kufuula (kuimba) J. Iwo anali kuyembekezera mlongo wawo, ndiye asanawonekere anagona kwa mphindi zisanu. Atangowonekera, adadzutsidwa ndikuwonetseredwa. Chimwemwe sichinali malire! Mpaka pano, moyo mmenemo si tiyi. Kodi timakula bwanji? Choyamba ndi bere nthawi zonse komanso kulikonse, pakufunika. Chachiwiri, tonse atatu takhala tikugona limodzi pabedi limodzi kuyambira kubadwa komanso chaka chonsechi. Ndimavala mu gulaye, ndinalibe stroller. Ndinayesa kangapo kumuyika mu stroller, koma amakhala pafupifupi mphindi 10, ndiye amayamba kutuluka. Tsopano ndayamba kuyenda, tsopano zakhala zosavuta, tikuyenda kale mumsewu ndi miyendo yathu. Tinakwaniritsa kufunikira "kukhala ndi amayi kwa miyezi 9 ndi miyezi 9 ndi amayi", ndipo chifukwa cha izi mwanayo adandipatsa mtendere wosadziwika, kumwetulira ndi kuseka tsiku lililonse. Analira chaka chino, mwina kasanu… Chabwino, simungathe kufotokoza zomwe iye ali J! Sindinaganizepo kuti kuli ana otere! Aliyense akudabwa naye. Nditha kupita naye kukacheza, kukagula, kukachita bizinesi, pamapepala amtundu uliwonse. Palibe mavuto kapena zokhumudwitsa. Anakhalanso chaka m'mayiko asanu ndi limodzi ndi msewu, ndi ndege, ndi magalimoto, ndi sitima, ndi mabasi, ndi zombo anapirira mosavuta kuposa aliyense wa ife. Amagona kapena kuzolowerana ndi ena, kuwapangitsa kukhala ochezeka komanso akumwetulira. Chofunikira kwambiri ndikulumikizana komwe ndimamva ndi iye. Izi sizingafotokozedwe. Zili ngati ulusi pakati pathu, ndimamva ngati gawo la ine. Sindingathe kumukweza mawu, kapena kumukhumudwitsa, mwinanso kumumenya mbama papa.