Kukhala amphamvu, kupirira zowawa, kukukuta mano, kukhala m’moyo titakweza mitu yathu, osapempha thandizo ndi chithandizo…. anthu ofunika kwa ife. Kodi kukhazikitsa uku kumachokera kuti ndipo zili choncho? Katswiri wa zamaganizo Galina Turetskaya akuti.
"Palibe mphamvu, palibe chikhumbo chokhala ndi moyo." - Natasha anatseka yekha mu nyumba, anagwera pa bedi maganizo kwa miyezi ingapo. Ndalama zikutha. Anathetsa ubale ndi wokondedwa wake, anasiya ntchito ...
Iye ndi mwana womaliza m’banjamo, koma sanathandizidwepo ndi ndalama. Ngakhale pamene phala linatha m'nyumba ya lendi ndipo Natasha anakomoka ndi njala m'basi, sanapite ngakhale kwa makolo ake kukadya. Osanenapo kupempha ngongole.
“Ndikavomereza kuti ndinalephera, adzasiya kundikonda.” N’zoona kuti sanaganizire mmene anthu amaganizira pa nkhani ya zovala kapena malo opita kutchuthi. Koma maganizowo anali mkati mwa mtima. Umu ndi momwe: choyamba timaganiza lingaliro, ndiyeno limatiganiza.
Chikhulupiriro chakuti “sindikondedwa ngati ndili wofooka” chinatenga nthawi yaitali kuti chiyambe. Podutsa ku office komwe Natasha amagwira ntchito, amayi adanyamula chakudya chamasana kwa mkulu wawo. Patapita zaka zambiri, Natasha anafunsa kuti: “Amayi, chifukwa chiyani?” Amayi adadabwa kwambiri: "Inde?! Kodi sindinakubweretsereni nkhomaliro nonse?!»
Tsiku lobadwa la mlongoyo linakonzedweratu, mphatsoyo inakambidwa pa khonsolo ya banja. Za mphatso zake, Natasha amakumbukira chidole chokha - kwa zaka zisanu ndi zitatu.
Tsiku loyamba lobadwa m'moyo wodziyimira pawokha: woyandikana nawo nyumba yogona anagula chimbalangondo chokwera kwambiri cha teddy ndi maluwa pamaphunziro - ndipo sanamvetsetse chifukwa chake Natasha adakwiya. Ndipo akuwoneka kuti wakumana ndi zenizeni ngati choyikapo nyali: zikuwoneka kuti wina angafune kuti ndikhale ndi tchuthi?! Zimachitika?
Kuti mutsegule chikondi, choyamba muyenera kuyang'anizana ndi kuwawidwa mtima ndi mkwiyo ndi kulira maliro popanda kudziimba mlandu chifukwa cha kufooka.
Palibe chikondi, chifukwa pali maganizo kukhala amphamvu? Kapena kodi mumafunika kukhala amphamvu nthawi zonse kuti mukhale ndi chikondi chochepa? Zili ngati kukangana kosatha pa zomwe zinayamba, nkhuku kapena dzira. Chofunikira si mawu olankhula, koma zotsatira zake.
"Ndimakonda makolo anga. Kuchokera ku mphamvu zotsiriza. Koma izi sizirinso za chikondi, koma za kupereŵera kwake, za kufunikira koyamwa kwa kuvomerezedwa. Ndipo mkati - anasonkhanitsa mkwiyo. Pa tsiku lililonse lobadwa. Chakudya chilichonse chimadutsa. Pakuti ndalama anabwereka kwa makolo kwa nthawi yokha kubweza. Ndipo simungakhumudwe ndi makolo anu, apo ayi sangakukondeni konse?
Koma kuti atsegule chikondi, choyamba munthu ayenera kuyang'anizana ndi kuwawidwa mtima ndi mkwiyo ndi kulira maliro popanda kudziimba mlandu chifukwa cha kufooka. Pambuyo pake Natasha anatha kuulula kwa banja lake kuti si zonse m'moyo wake zimagwirizana ndi chinyengo utawaleza kuti analenga. Ndipo makolo ake sanamukankhire kutali! Zinapezeka kuti iye mwini anamanga khoma la kunyansidwa ndi njerwa zaukali za mkwiyo. Kuzizira kumeneku kunam’manga, kusam’lola kupuma (m’lingaliro lenileni ndi lophiphiritsira, chifukwa mkwiyo umamanga thupi, kumapangitsa kupuma kwachiphamaso) ...
Patapita masiku angapo, Natasha anafotokoza ndi misozi mmene anawerenga nkhani za machiritso a mkazi: pamene inu mukhoza kubwera kwa amayi anu, kuika mutu wanu pa maondo ake ... : “Mwana wanga, zinthu zili bwanji? Bwerani mudzacheze, ndikudyetseni chakudya chokoma, ndiyeno tigone nanu, ndingokusisita mutu wanu.”
Ayezi wathyoka. Ndithudi.